Forgetfulness

Greetings, earthlings :P

Haha, I don’t know. I forget I have a blog so much, but I doubt I have much of a fanbase to disappoint. I thought I’d stop in and say hi, though I have not much to say.

I’ve been on a writing spree as far as my music goes, though. Purrtty exciting. I recorded and posted two new songs: There’s Something Here, and Try to Look Me in the Eyes. http://www.myspace.com/danimariehearts Both new, the second one the best :) I really would hope you would all have a listen, I’d really appreciate it.

Also, I’m trying to do a karaoke song one a week, so if you have any requests, let me know and I’ll do my best to sing it for you :) That’s all I’ve got, just expect alot of awesome things coming from me in the next few months :)

Cheerio!

Love you :)

-Dani

Posted in Uncategorized at April 1st, 2010. No Comments.

A Dream, oh but a Dream

To start off, I got a new job :) It’s with SOE as a GM. And that’s all I can really say haha. But it’s really great so far, the people are really nice and I really enjoy it, and it’s only my second day :)

I just feel after I found out I got this job a HUGE weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I mean, whether we like it or not, money is a huge part of how happy you are. To an extent, if you’re barely making it by and living paycheck it’s really stressful and obviously you’re not going to be happy with your life. Unless of course, you’re a minimalist, and don’t need much at all to live. Which is totally okay and all, and I wish I could be that way. But of course, I have to have my internet, new stuff, and yummy food. And the ability to see a movie in theaters. I don’t know haha.

And back to my point. Me and my boyfriend live on our own, and it was hard to live off a part-time minimum wage job, especially when I was relied on to pay rent and bills that I couldn’t pay. It was hard, and it made both of us tense when we went remotely near that subject of conversation. Okay, mostly me, but still. I had to rely on him to pay the majority of the bills, and I hated it so much, because he shouldn’t have to take of me when he was trying to be on his own. So, after pushing myself, granted, I’m hard to motivate sometimes, I applied for a job and the same place he works at. I figured, hey, I like games, I like computers, this would be perfect.

And I think it is. It’s everything I could ever want in a job at this point in my life. Not only will it give me free time to work on my music, it’s a relaxed, friendly environment, and there are so many ways to move up in the world of entertainment through them, it’s crazy. I’m really excited to see where it takes me, stress-free and happy :)

Now to get working on getting my license. ^_^

That’s all for now, I’ll update more soon.

I love you!

Dani(Nielle)

Posted in Uncategorized at March 3rd, 2010. 1 Comment.

World of Wondering

Does anyone ever just sit back and watch people, try to figure out who they are, why they’re doing what they’re doing, etc? I tend to be a really curious and observant person, so a lot of the time if I’m at the mall or a grocery store or something, I take a few moments to kinda see how people interact with each other. I can tell a lot about a person by how they speak and act with other people.

What really gets me is how much people make me wonder. How they ended up how they are.  Like say, you see a middle-aged woman in the cat food aisle, talking to the employees in the tone of voice as she would her cats. It’s a strange sight, to say the least. But then it makes you curious. Has she gone off the deep end, or has she just been so accustomed to cats she doesn’t know how to interact with people anymore? Or maybe she’s just strange. It could be so many things, and it’s so tempting to ask people.

You can also tell alot about a person by what they buy. I’ve learned to take note of that when I started working, because it’s really interesting to see how much money people will spend for something or how hard they’ll try to barter the price till it’s practically free. Different cultures, too, spend differently, and it’s really interesting to see the difference in the way they shop between Americans, Asians, Middle-Easterns, British, Latinos, etc. Some are grateful and excited when they see the price is so little compared to what they’d spend in their country, others…not so much.

And it really makes you wonder how much you actually spend on things you don’t need, and how much we put on material items in this day and age. Consumerism is a big part of our country, and whether people like it or not, money does make the world go ’round—or at least the United States. Kids who are growing up and grew up in the 2000’s are in a new time. I feel like it’s becoming United States of the Spoiled Brats era. I’m sorry, but seven year olds with cell phones is just not okay with me. Just the fact that human interaction is more through computers and phones is strange.

When I was little, we were allowed only an hour of tv and computer time a day, the rest we were to do homework or play outside. And most of the time we played outside until our parents had to drag our asses back inside. And to see now that people are glued to their cellphones via texting, it’s a little strange. Not that I don’t appreciate texting and cellphones, but it’s like it’s consuming them…and us.

But I understand, technology is changing how we look at things and I think it’s a great thing. It’s made things easier, better, and more exciting. It’s just one day there will be a point where we’ll have to set our phones down and turn away from our computers and our tv screens and enjoy the fresh air, the beautiful world, before it’s gone.

And yeah, I have no idea how I went from how people act to my views on technology, but there you have it lol. Thanks for reading, if you got through that mess of thoughts. :)

I love you!

Dani(Nielle)

Posted in Uncategorized at February 20th, 2010. No Comments.

Blogging: My goal to actually do it

So, according to my boyfriend, people like reading blogs. And so I figure, if I want people to like me, I should blog. Because if people read my blogs and like what they read, they like me. Don’t deny my logic. :)

And so my journey begins. I’m making a promise to whoever reads this that I’ll post something interesting, fun, exciting…every week. And the non-interesting, boring, life rants every other day. Deal? Deal. I guess this is my start.

So, I work at Macy’s. Sort of. I’m “on-call” as they call it. I call it, “hey I’m the store bitch so I have to answer my phone every time it rings so I can be sure to fill in a 4 hour shift for someone who called in sick, once every 2 weeks, at hours I can never make because they only call when I’m busy.” Yeah…it sucks.

So I didn’t called in for almost three weeks, so I didn’t think they’d call. Aaron was planning this really cute awesome surprise for me, since I didn’t have to work on Valentine’s Day, and it was going to be perfect. On the Friday before, my phone rings mysteriously during my sleep. When I wake up, I hurry to listen to my voice-mail, thinking it was a callback from my interview that had gone well. I get already with a big smile on my face, ready to hear the most amazing persons voice calling me back. Instead, I get this.

“Hi Danielle, this is *bitch-face I ruin your life with a snap of my fingers* I’m calling to let you know that I’ve *fucked you over and took away your time with your boyfriend(errr, scheduled me a few shifts)* You can go ahead and go onto the website and check when we’re expecting you to be here”

And at first I’m like, omg hours=money yay! But then I saw when they scheduled me. 10:45am-7:30pm. February 14th. NOOOO!!! It wouldn’t have been so bad except that Aaron WORKS nights. SLEEPS days. Our Valentine’s plans were ruined. I was ANGRY. And obviously, I still am haha.

But we did make it a valentines weekend before that to make up for it. And he made me dinner and gave me cookies and cream chocolate and that made me happy. But yeah, NEVER tell your employers you have no life and will be their bitch. It’s not cool.

Anyway, I have a few announcements as far as my music goes. I’m writing some new songs, planning a cd and stuff,  be ready. And, I’m making button pins. I don’t want to give to much away right now, but they’re going to be awesome, and you will want to pay a dollar, maybe 50 cents for them haha. Just wait. Be prepared for awesomeness :)

Thanks for reading, I love you!

Dani(Nielle)

Posted in Uncategorized at February 15th, 2010. 1 Comment.

Better late than never

My new years resolution is a little late, but I guess, better late than never, eh?

1. I’m going to take time out of everyday to relearn french, then russian, german, etc. it’lll take years, but I’m game.
2. Read about different cultures, enduldge my mind into new worlds and make my mind do something useful
3. Healthy makes for happy living. yoga, aerobics, smoothies, and more water, here I come.
4. Write everyday. Whether it’s something or nothing, I need emotional release I’m not getting.
5. Live, indulge, smile, experience…

Posted in Personal Blogs at January 10th, 2010. No Comments.

Just another rabbit hole

I never really thought about my life this way, but at this moment I just realize how I am. I often feel lost, confused, and thrown into some very strange world. I suppose how I feel cannot really be explained in plain or elaborate words, but compared to Alice going into the rabbit hole one day, sucked into a strange new place. I feel somehow the spotlight is on me, waiting for me to start the main act, to do something almighty or something.

And the thing is, I don’t know what to do. I don’t know how to be me anymore. I don’t know if I know who I am, what I want, and how to accomplish anything. Everything feels so routine, yet so foreign and distant. I feel like a broken toy, ready to be throw out. How long am I going to have to pretend to be happy and sure in this life before I break? Or maybe I’ve already broken, I don’t even know anymore.
Everything that I wanted and knew of seems so distorted and unattainable…I’m confused and I just…hate everything.
Posted in Personal Blogs at January 10th, 2010. No Comments.